Great insight.
Those words of yours contradict somehow the words of a piece of paper written by a young french teenager, which created scandal and rejection from the rest, by being so violent and even racist from their point of view. This is about The Workshop, a French movie (2017)
Beyond the several reviews about this movie,like the social environment of a small port, the immigrant population (mostly Muslim) and several other situations, I am, on the other hand, more interested in the writings of Antoine. The topic for the class was tot write something about a past ship factory that was closed years ago in that port..
Antoine came back to class with his story. The narrations starts with the worker finishing with the last details before the yacht is released to the water.
Anthoine's style is very similar to yours
@Oberscharführer,
"As usual he had to struggle to get up. He nearly forgot he had finished at the yard the temp work was over. He had put the finishing touches to the yacht, refurbished by the twenty five workers.
He went to the dry dock with a terrific din, the crane moved the yacht to the water. Everyone cheered, his colleagues and the engineer who never spoke to him. The yacht owner... an emir in a white djellaba, he joined the others on board.
His blood was pounding in his ears , he no longer knew why he was there. Then the engine rumbled to life. Slowly as in a dream, the boat left the harbor. Everyone was smiling, the engineer ... congratulating the team. He finally reached him. He held out a spotless hand.
That did it.
He felt he was in a black hole speeding towards the abyss. He opened his bag, took out an AK-47, and before could react, he opened fire.
Nothing could stop him, the blood seemed to urge him on, the boat reached the out sea. No emotion, his mind in blank.
He kills. The last one is the other temp worker. The young man begs in terror, a terror he refuses to see. So he fires one last time. He looks around as if discovering the scene. The deck is a pool of red, streaming blood covers the white seats. The air smells of death, less sickening than expected. Spattered with blood and brains, he steps over the corpses and the dying. Ignoring the pain, he goes the the helm, with the pride, steers the gosh ship to a destination he does not even know."
Man, the other dudes felt offended, specially the immigrant teenagers. He was practically isolated, more than before, he was always a lonely person. He, however, had a regular life like everyone else. He goes to parties, takes care of his little sister, has his buddies, just a regular dude.
After some more situations where the teacher is also involved, he decided to leave the workshop, and practically his former life.
Here is the part that is in disagreement with your quote. You declared that it must be a specific goal and work towards it,
When Antoine returned back for the last time to his class, he read for them the continuation of his story. This second part turned down all the comments related to racism, made by the others about his story.
"But, it didn't work. He knew all the roads and tracks. He had traveled them so often alone, always alone, always the same landscape, the yard that no one could avoid, the crane that was religiously preserved like a work of art
He didn't share that nostalgia. He didn't care about the yard, the workers or the tankers built there. That wasn't his story. He had meet people he knew and pretend to be happy. He knew everyone so tried to avoid them.
He felt these people smiling at him, who claim to love or help him, talked to him like an animal, an animal to be trained. He had to realize that even if he was bored, even if his friends were strangers, even with no future, no friends, no job, he should feel happy.
Yes. A man can kill out of boredom, just to see he could have shot someone out of boredom, just for something to happen.
He could have told the cops he shot the guy for being an Arab or a Jew or gay, they could have understood, no explaining to do.
But the victim didn't matter. He could even have shot himself, they would have understood too. They could have said: he had no future, no friends...
But he did neither one. He was too weak he had done nothing. So he got bored and waited.
But, for what?
He drifted along just to pass the time, to kill time, as they say.But the town was killing him, always the same routes.
Sometimes, to dispel his boredom, he would take a long detour."
Man, that story is the shit.
Even when the story is just fiction and nothing else, the absence of motive to commit a crime could be something real, this is to say, with no need of planning or making it as a goal. Killing out of boredom "just because", is, of course, not a great quote for philosophical purposes, but I see it as very intriguing.